I’ve learned that hospitality is risky.
I have to risk vulnerability, rejection,
judgment, dismissal.
Hospitality means that
I desire connection with another. I
desire that we will connect, that we will love one another as sisters and
brothers in Christ.
Hospitality is full
of hope and anticipation for what God may do in our relationships.
The hope that I may open myself willingly to
others and that they would receive me and reciprocate. The hope that in reaching out my heart will
grow in connecting with others.
Anticipation is not the same as expectation. Anticipate does not know what will happen but
welcomes the newness and unknowing with joy.
Expectation defines what I want to happen. Expectation is not necessarily bad, in fact I
think it’s really good to have clear expectations for many things.
Yet, I’m not sure expectation has any role in
hospitality.
I’ve been thinking that expectations
in hospitality and in offering myself to others, in offering space to others,
in opening myself to the world—just seem to be unhelpful. Either I limit what God will do or become
disappointed and hurt by others. If I am
truly offering hospitality—wouldn’t it mean that I do not have an expectation
of them? Wouldn’t it mean that I put it
out there and let it go? I can still
hold to anticipation, but perhaps I should stop expecting others to react,
respond, reciprocate in various ways. It
seems like true hospitality must be without expectation because it has to allow
space for the Spirit to bring comfort, change, peace,… whatever is needed. How can someone feel truly welcomed if they
feel they are expected to be a certain way?
Perhaps the only expectation for hospitality is the expectation
of authenticity. Yet even that can be
hard for people.
Do expectations force
people to be certain ways? As in, “I
have to be authentic because she wants me to be?”
I always go back to the tattered notebook paper which had
Nouwen’s definition of hospitality written in black marker that hung in my
office as a missionary: “Hospitality is
not to change people, but to offer space where change can take place.”
Even this expects something—a change.
Reminds me of chemistry- which I was horrible at but had a
teacher who tireless worked with me and
worked so hard but just struggled so…. But chemistry always has a
reaction. Things come together and you
expect a reaction to occur.
If the hospitality I offer—is open, selfless, just an
offering of myself and what I have-- can I want a reaction?
Sometimes we want healing, we want reconciliation,
we want a growing deeper, we want a movement forward...
Most always wanting
connection – certainly grounded in my extroversion. (yes there are times I want to just sit in bed and do nothing and be with no one, or walk in the woods with just me and my dogs... but I feel as though I have a yearning, an urgency to be connected -- not for the sake of being connected but connected with the purpose of sharing Christ.)
I value connection with others. I value connecting with them as people, as children
of God—we may have nothing in common—but somewhere, somehow we are connected… and that must mean something.
Perhaps that is the one thing we have in
common and from there—couldn't something grow deeper?
Certainly we will not be connected to everyone in the same
way – the same depth—but something of hospitality and connecting with others
must be this purpose, this power- in seeing and saying, “I see you. And in
seeing you I acknowledge that you and I have been created and we have the
possibility of unity."
(wasn't there something like this in that movie where people were blue?)
The possibility of unity is not something for us to work
at or make happen- but for us to listen deeply enough to hear God speak, to be
still enough to feel the Spirit move, to in some way realize that we have both
been redeemed and made new by the same Christ who lived for me and you and died for me and for you and
rose for me and for you.
Hospitality opens the door to connection and yet connection does
not mean “I like you” or “I agree with you.”
But somewhere it must mean I value you.
I value who you are, I value that you were made for a purpose. I value that you have gifts. Inherently, hospitality must honor another
person.
Honor who they are as different
from me and honor who we are together as connected with me.
Honor seems to be a way of loving the child
of God that is in you—The Christ in me sees the Christ in you—and as children
of the kingdom/kin-dom connected through the blood of Christ – we are family
and we love one another.
How do we live this hospitality? Seeking connection, forsaking expectation,
hoping with anticipation, open for God’s presence to dwell with us so that we
are freed from fear, so that we can truly be our authentic self, with the hope
that connection will be birthed?
For so much of who I am, I believe this to be my deepest longing. Not to run and retreat from others even when
the world has been hurtful… but to experience the truth of what I know must be
possible because of Christ.
Christ came for all the world and died for all the world.
The World is my Parish.
At Pentecost the reality of unity was experienced— All
Speaking different languages, and yet the Spirit made them One.
Hospitality- Connection—Honor- - Unity
